new year!!

well- yet again, here i am trying this blogging thing. i really need to get better so my kids have something to read about me when i am gone...

so- heres to my 31st year!! i am hoping that this is the year where things go right...keeping my fingers crossed. this year i am hoping to finally get off this baby weight. for those who follow this, please help hold me accountable & be there when i need strength. dave is also joining me on this journey so i will report how we are both doing. i was going to start working out on the wii tonight, however, i messed up my knee some how so i have been hobbling around all day. it is killing me. you never realize how much movement your knees do in one day until you have hurt one and every move you make sends pain shooting in your knee and you want to punch someone because it hurts so bad.

normally i would do a year in review, but i will do that tomorrow. i am tired & hurting right now so i think i am going to hit the hay. but- i think it will be good to end all my posts this year with either a thought or something i have learned during the day or week. so- here is what i learned today: how to jump start my car!!! yay! ok- yes dave was on the phone walking me through it so i didn't kill myself or the girl helping me, but still- if i ever have to, i can do it all by myself now!!

tata for now- cole

birthdays!

today is my hubbys bday!!! 31 years old :)

happy birthday my love.

wow- my first week home

well- it was my first week home...reagan still went to the sitter though..i am trying to get my house in order. since she is my wild child and into EVERYTHING, i figured that it would be easier to try to get things accomplished while she was not here. next week will be the real test of my sanity...

good news- found a part time job. YAY ME! and the best part is, i can do it from home. on my own time! isn't that amazing?? a job that works around my family. i am so grateful that i found this opportunity. so i get the best of both worlds...working mom but still home for my kids. fingers crossed it will all work out :)

i have all these plans in my head of things i want to do now..spend more than two hours a day with my kids (that is the most exciting thing)...update & finish my kids scrap books...blog about things that are bottled inside of my crazy head all day...teach myself to become better with my sewing machine...learn how to truly use coupons...actually get to work out at a gym....all of this and more. i tried to do all this while i was working, it was hard. i am sure it is just as hard while staying home, but again, fingers crossed i will be able to start a new schedule & routine and be able to get a few things from my list done.

i am hoping that along the way i will rediscover who i am . i think that is really the journey i am on right now...finding out who i am so i can be a better mother, wife & friend.

for now- cole

new begininngs

well- i did it...i finally left the corporate job. it was so hard for me because i have been there for 11 years...yes that is right- 11 years. really it has been the only constant, stable thing in my life for the past 11 years. but it was time. when a job starts to affect you 24 hours a day it is time to leave. not to mention that i started to reflect on how much i missed of sterling's life when i was a single mom & had to work. i started to see the same pattern was happening with reagan & i realized the best place for me now is at home with my kids. corporate america isn't going anywhere & i am sure if this doesn't work out the way i hope, i can always go back.

however, we have two new businesses that i am going to try & build form home. we have a great little photography/ design business that is slowly but surely budding!! i am so excited to start taking more pictures to build my portfolio. my hubby is learning the design side so fast it is insane!

the other business we have is a fundraising business. i am so excited to see that take off & be able to give back to so many organizations that are in need right now of vital funding.

well- tomorrow is my first day as a stay at home mom! i am hoping that while i am trying to build a home business & will have a little more time to blog, finish up some scrapbooks (sterling's is still only done up to 6 weeks!! he is 7- that is sad!!) and do a few other things that i have wanted to do for a while now. keeping my fingers crossed!!

for now- cole

wow- i failed miserably at this blog thing...lets give it another try shall we!

so i set out this year to write a blog...hmmm i guess i will blame it on working for corporate america & being too busy. well- a few things have changed in my life recently, so maybe now is as good a time as ever. it has been almost 6 months since my 30th birthday & i feel like this is the year to find the real me. i am excited to start my new adventure in life & hope this blog will help me on my journey.

lets recap the last few important things that have happened in my life since i turned 30....

1. my precious little baby girl Reagan turned 1 on may 12...and she started walking on the 14!!
2. my darling little boy Sterling turned 7 & is now in 2nd grade (i can't even believe it)
3. my husband & i celebrated our two year anniversary & we sealed in the arizona temple as an eternal family on that day! what a wonderful anniversary present.
4. and most recently, i put in my notice to a company i have dedicated the past 11 years of my life to yesterday...

many changes have come in my life & i know many more are to come. my husband & i have started two businesses recently.. some would call us crazy, but i believe those who take big risks in life are the ones who also get big rewards. its funny, my friend at work the other day told me i was a big dreamer; i don't see why that is a bad thing. if you never dream, then what do you really have in life? i am going to stick to my big dreams! maybe one day they will become my reality.

for now-
Cole

two week recap

well- it has been an emotional two weeks since i last blogged. every night i would go to bed & think of all the things i wanted to get out & post- but i was tired & didnt' want to let all my inner emotions out. then i thought the other day, that is the puspose of this blog. to figure things out, work through them and look for inspiration when i need it.

i have been reading the shack..it definately has given me a different perspective on things. i am not done, but once i am, i will give my review. but- like i said, it has had me thinking. i have been going through a lot of personal struggles lately. i have had to say some hard things to two people i love dearly. i have lived my life to please them & do everything they wanted me too. now- i need to grow up and live a life with my family. as i thought about the things that have been said to me over the years, it made me think hard about a few things. lately most of what has been said was in reference to my husband. he has been out of work (well full time work) and had not been well accepted. side note- he did get a job friday & he is so excited. it was actually quite cute when i came home to see how happy he was. but i digress- it made me think about how we as humans are so quick to judge & not give people a chance. it made me thing of the verse in john when jesus says, "he that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone." then i thought about a primary song that i used to sing when i was little. here is a small verse, but it spoke to me in volumes over the last couple of weeks.

Love one another as Jesus loves you,

try to show kindness in all that you do

be gentle & loving in deed & in thought

for these are the things Jesus taught.

it is amazing how simple it is and how much man complicates things. but this really made me think about my situation. things could be so much worse. i could be in a loveless marriage, my kids could be in danger or sick, i could hate everything about my life...i could go on. it really made me appreciate what i have-a husband that loves me & our kids, healthy children, a roof over our heads, food in our fridge, a church that has helped us more than they know when times have been tough, good friends who lend theor ear to my complaints and laughter of my children. their little voices are the one thing in life that i will never take for granted. no matter how down i am or what i am carrying on my shoulders, the minute one of my kids smiles or laughs, all the weight of the world dissapears.

wow- i know i have kinda been all over the place with thisblog- but i have two weeks worth of emotions coming out faster than my fingers can type. until next time- cole

2010..heres to a new year

well...good bye to 2009 and hello to 2010. i am hoping that this year brings many new adventures for me & my family..and yours as well (to who ever is reading this). let me tell you a little bit about why i started this blog...i have a family blog, but i needed an outlet for me. i need a place where i can get out what is on my mind, what is in my heart & hopefully find what i am searching for. i hope that any readers of this blog will comment with inspirations, recommendations and opinions to my posts. who knows- maybe we can all inspire each other.

i have made some resolutions this year...find my spirituality, health, financial freedom, and most of all- happiness in all things. i look forward to the new year and the journey that awaits me.

for now- cole